Monday, January 19, 2009

Guy Sebastian - Taller, Stronger, Better

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Pindah rumah again....

hear ye, hear ye!!
i've moved to as the pasture is greener there :D :D

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Word Of God Speak

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Lifehouse Broken music video

this song just arrowed evrything in me...

Lord, i'll wait if it's all i hv to do

a good friend once told me tat weddings would b bitter for those who are not yet in a relationship as they grow older, as i told him that i love weddings and all the atmosphere of it then. this made me realise tat there's this other side of weddings which some ppl hv to struggle with.... so, prayerfully i dun hv to suffer it for long....hahaha....*cough cough bleak* x_x

however, it was not so long ago tat i bugged Him on that question regarding my future as in relationship. yes yes, for all u out there reading this...i'm human too u know...i'm not gonna b a nun for crying out loud -.-'' sheesh....when i told chubes he was like "U LIKE SOMEONE???" duno to laugh or cry....

anyway ya...i guess He was like super sick with me bugging Him bout it and just slammed this verse in my face as i was doing quiet time. Psalm 27:13-14....

I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.

it's like....*SLAP* into the face by Him saying "OI WOMAN! WAIT LA!! I'M NOT SITTING HERE SHAKING LEGS AND DRINKING COFFEE K" hahaha....wat comfort. but, least i'm sure of what's going on now.... :) so, no matter how hard, Lord help me b patient and i'll wait if it's all i hv to do!!! *breathe*

Dare you to move_ Switchfoot (string quartet version)

coolness ^^

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

21..21? 21!!!

it has been a few days ago since i finally turned 21....

21,21,21, what a number.... it was not so long ago that i wished i was older, so, i could enjoy the "freedom" of adulthood, do whatever i want, be whatever i be. it was not so long ago, that i wished i grow up fast, so i can conquer the world!!! LOL.... was not that so long ago too, that i realize that i'm growing up alright...growing up fast...a little too fast.

i cant help but wonder....what would it be in the future? will i do well in my practical next year? will i make a difference as a teacher? where would i be when i'm 25? would i be married by then? what would i be doing? whom will i meet? will i be the same? .... on and on it goes.... i am growing up fast...

looking at myself....i see a 15 year old girl staring back at me....sure, there may b a few extra lines on my face; sure, there may b some changes in the way i think; sure, my character may hv changed a little; sure, i may dress a little differently now....but, i still feel the same....same old me....just another year older....another year into reality.

looking never seem to skip a was one adventure aftr chapther aftr another....and i treasure evry bit of it. i sud live for now, the present, live for God who knows the future. do my best for now and hand Him the future. it's all i can do....all i can say...He will carry me through each and evry day.

i'm 21 now.... :) hooray!!

Sunday, September 07, 2008

His wish for us~

Everyone longs to give himself completely to someone: to have a deep soul relationship with another; to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But, God to a Christian says, no, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me, alone. With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me. To having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me, alone. Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I plan for you.

You will never be united with another until you are united with Me, really united with another, exclusive of anyone, or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan that you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the best, please allow Me to bring it to you. Just keep watching Me...expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I Am. And keep listening and learning the things I tell you.

You just wait, that's all...wait. Don't be anxious, don't worry, don't look around at the things that others have gotten or I have given them. Don't look at the things you think you want. Just keep on looking off and away to Me, or you will miss what I want to show you. And then, when you are ready , I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than anything you would dream of.

You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, and I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time. Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I prepare for you, you won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me. And this is perfect love. And, dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love.

I want to see in you, in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me. And I want you to enjoy materially, the everlasting union and beauty and perfection and love that I offer you with Myself. I know that I love you utterly. I am El Shaddai-most loving Father, God Almighty. Believe it and be satisfied and I will satisfy you.

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Tuesday, August 26, 2008


It's been years since I've thrown that piece of gem which I treasured so much into the sea; Into the vast unknown; Into eternity. That piece which nearly brought me into near insanity, to self-absorbtion, to lust; yet, it brought me tempermental joy, social envy and acception of sort. Wearing it around my neck brought me so much pleasure, yet, its colour and cold surface dejects its wearer. This piece of "gem", nothing more than a piece of plactic jewellary after much inspection is now no more.

Walking along the shores which I once treaded, looking around for hints as I trying to trace back memories and feelings of long ago. Which in reality, not so long ago. Skies of baby blue is now turned orange; Young treelings are now fully grown after much sun and rain; The wind does not bring the sweet fragrence of flowers which it used to as it sweep its chilly cold body over me; The sand beneath my feet fails to soothe and warm my feet as it used to; The life and activity on the beach is now short, lifeless. Has everytyhing lost its touch? Has time changed its surrounding so much till I can't adapt? Or, Is it just me changing?

I think its both.

wonder where did it landed the depth of the sea? washed on shore in some far off land? picked up by fate? I wonder...I wonder...Strecthing my sight across the now sparkling sea, reflecting the sun's rays as its seeps into the horizon, admiring the awesome scenary before me, I noticed something glimmered in a different tone, out shining the rest. Curiousity got the better of me.

Upon the sight of my target, I could only stand from a distance, staring at it thoughtfully, doubtfully and questionably. As lo and behold, it was the "gem" which I has disposed of, that not so long ago. Memories flooded back like a dam unleashing its waters; Feelings of yonder soar in heights as it flew once again. I'm tempted; Tempted to pick it up and own it once again; Tempted to say "Just this once..."; Tempted to turn back to the past.

Then it happened. Another being appeared without my knowing, bent down and scooped it up with her tender hands, admiring it as it shone with pride, holding it as if it were her own.

Jelousy stormed over me, raining drops of asid. Why didn't I take it when I had the chance? Why don't I just take it out of her hands? Why? WHY? why? Why can't I have a gem which compliments me? Which I rightfully own... Struggling with myself; my desires; my wants. I had moved on. I did what was right though it was hard and when no one understand. I was strong. What is happening to me now? I need that strength once again. That strength to move from that spot, from going back to the past, from desiring something which is not mine, from just being impatient in finding my own gem.

Amist my mourns and groans and questions, a gentle hand rested on my shoulders; A gentle voice told me that He's all I need, that I need to trust Him to get THE special gem for me. I crumpled into His loving arms, sobbing, as He stroke my hair and whispering words of ensurement and encouragement over me. It was then I remembered...He's all I need. He has the power, He has the strength, He's capable of getting a gem for me, as He's a craftsman...who shapes minerals into gems. All I need to do is allow Him to choose and fashion it for me as I wait patiently.

In time...just wait...I'll have my own custom-made gem.